We almost died about 4 times today in the car, EVERYONE is out and about. I mean, we could have died but that wouldn't be that fun.
I think I'll stay home tonite. My plans were cancelled when something happened. So...blah. But I saw his older brother at the grocery today, he works there. Or maybe he wears aprons in public? No, cuz it was green.Anyway, I went to Blockbuster today and saw a Korn kid. Aww...I rented two movies. But I won't tell you what.
I don't understand WHY people have counters. I really don't. Why in the world would I want to know how many people have been to my site? I mean, is that any of my business? Some times I like to know a ton of people visit my site. And then I imagine just 1 or two a month. Yah know, you have more freedom when you have imagination.
Last year on this day I went to Barnes & Noble, bought a cd with my own christmas money. I won't tell you the cd. The cd was bluish gray though.
And I was excited about 1999 becuz it was new. And it's still new to me, perhaps if I had forfronted in my head that "Hey, it's 1999!" then it would be old. But I live my life. I don't live 1999. That's the reason I think of 2000 as another year. I mean come on! If you have to have a new year or a holiday to change your life or church habits, then I pity you. Absolutely. We should be changing our lives all the time. Changing our thoughts, emotions, the way we live.I wens hopping and bought a crap-load of t-shirts. That's all I bought heh. Was t-shirts. Now I need some jeans. But I need some cool ones though.
Becuz I want to be cool.I think I'm gonna watch some movies and so some stuff. tonite.
I haven't listened to anything BUT the downward spiral. I'm going to get very tired of this cd soon. I promise you.
Thanks Lauryn for the Y2K card....hopefully I don't look like a porkupine.
I go to school Monday :-(. It's really, really sad. But not really. I need to clean my room. It's SO messy. I have about 20 videos just near/on my VCR. Including Titanic. I don't care who says that's a girl movie. I like it. And if it's a girl movie, then I'm a girl too. bite me.
I'm listening to Prodigy now. NOT 2 inch nails. Prodigy is very very good. Especially track #7. That's very very good. I don't like the hits too much. I worn out those hits track 2nd and track 8th. I don't listen to those unless I'm too busy in something else to change it. Cuz I do enjoy track 1 no matter what message it means, I jsut like the sound and the lyrical sounds. Not the meaning. Anti-violence erodes.
I remember in 1997 I was planning on going crazy and rebelling and then in September of 1999 I'd get my act together in time for 2000 so when the world blew up I could get baptized and be prepared for heaven. That didn't quite happen. But. The world ain't blow'in up. It's kinda funny/weird to hear people "swearing" it is. I mean come on! Another number is another number and God ain't no wimp. I mean if he wanted to blow it up he'll do it any second he wants to. Not at a certain 'number.' Anyone whose scared of dying is a complete fool. I mean, if you're so scared then why don't you get off your azz and get baptized or study buddha or whatever the crap you do.
I got a t-shirt that says "Tommy Hellfighter" heh. It's a church t-shirt. And then I got another t-shirt that says "Over the Hill" and it's pretty good fit.
I love it.Maddy has her 5-album list in Rolling Stone and one of her 1999 pics was Beth Orton, Central Reservation. I was proud of her, becuz that album is reely reely awesome. I'm tell'in ya. I hope all my friends don't do anything stupid tonite. Which they will, but hoping never killed anybody.
People may say my skin is a waste, but ya know - I'll show you up one day. I'm not a nothing. I'm really not. Ya know. Don't take advtantage of me. You should feel proud. Feel proud of what you are but don't say anybody else isn't worth living on earth. Cuz I'm important. I'm not a loser. I've got goals.
And life. Along with 6 billion other people. We have to be nice and make room for each other as well as be selfish and take up our own space.
I'm crazy like applesauce. heh.
I'm going shopping today. I'm pretty excited about that. I really am. I love shopping. And perhaps that's selfish. But...nonetheless I'm going shopping. I'm not cool enuf to hate it. I like getting new stuff. I'm not sure why. Clothes shopping is boring, unless you NEED it. Especially girls. Shopping for clothes with girls sucks. It really does. I'm not kidding. Always has been.
When I was little I used to have conversations with the mannequins when my mom was shopping. I don't think they have those things anymore. I'm not really sure.
You wanna see an e-mail of me from early 1997?
See how much I've changed;
Subject: Hey !!
Date: Mon, 06 Jan 1997 21:19:58 EST
From: casey_h_8@juno.com
To: lauren@worldkids.net
Sorry I haven't e-mailed you in awhile , I've been quite busy . Hey I changed the name to my club , its called *KiD* now !! Do you like it ? I don't know ... Oh well I think its better than *KeyClub* . Anyway how are you ? To tell ya the truth I really don't want to be in Guy*s for Kids Club anymore ...
But don't tell anyone because then I'll be hated really bad on the 'net LOL LOL !! That would be agony . I have 566 e-mails in my inbox and I get like 30 to 40 e-mails a day ... My mind is about to blow !! See like a month or so ago I had nothing to do ... I was so bored and I couldn't do anything ... Now I have so much stuff to do that I can't do anything !! I've got to stop kissing you know what and start being controlling and on tract !! Exept for you LOL LOL !!
Well anyway I'm thinking about turning my club into and penpal club , what would you think ? I don't know I really don't want to go against you but my club has a place where you can look up penpals . Hey since I'm most-likely going to become a Area Manager for Guys on World Kids maybe I'll be boosted up to Direct my own club on World Kids !! That would be way harsh to be next door neighbors . But we wouldn't compete against each other . No way hosea !!
I like read a 120 page book last night on FTP . Ugh !! Talk about boring !! I've ready alot of computer books , I only get them on special occasions because the cost like hundreads of dollars !!
My cousins came from Las Vegas for a week and I was trying to get them to join your club . They have a computer at their home .
Where did I start talking about my cousins LOL LOL ? Gosh !! Look where my mind has gone !! Whos your president ? My grandpa has a chat of all of the presidents in the past of the Phillipines . He also has a map of it because he travels alot on business .
I was a crazy kid. That was in 6th grade. I was a hardcore puppy, let me tell you. I'm being sarcastic btw.
Wanna see another one? Sure you do; The next one was the 12th of December 1996. Lauryn is in the red.
From: Lauren/KCI
To: "Casey"
Subject: you got a job!
Date: Thu, 12 Dec 1996 03:09:00 +0800
Message-ID: <32AF06CC.762D@worldkids.net>References:
Dear Casey,
Hi...sure I need all the help ..what with 450 members..my hands are so full. The other officers help me. Thanks for asking about the job..
Hmmm.. I was thinking you could be the Security Officer...checking the guestbooks, message boards, member book for foul language or members that pretend to be kids. I found out 2 days ago someone signed up when I was checking for awards of Homepages. One member entry was a 25 year old man who probably wanted to sell stuff to kids. I removed him. You could report this to me. Does security officer sound ok with you? Let me know if you want another title. just give suggestions.
Thanks!
Lauren:-)
Casey wrote:
I would really have to help your club in any possible way I can , I can do many stuff , storiez , reporter , editor , you name it I can do it ... I can do columnist , reporter ,editor , make sure all of your message boardz are clean and make sure they have no filthy language cause alot of people are having trouble with hackerz ... Hey maybe I can browse the member bookz every 5 dayz or something and if I see somethign filthy or trash someone put on it and I can report it to you and you can delete it since you have the password to it !! Thatz a really good idea . I really am dying to help you with your club !!!!!! You know that new Activitiez page that you have ? Well I can think of new coming eventz like , how to start a club , how to build a paper airplane , or silly stuff like , how to eat a subsandwich and a sloppy Joe without spilling anything on your feet . And I can think of 20 wayz to prevent those thingz !! I'm really happy to be in your club !! One you stop reading this , check out my page and club !!
www.geocities.com/enchantedforest/1522 ,
www.angelfire.com/biz/keyclub/index.html
Bye !!!!C*A*S*E*Y*
So that's one year and 8 months till I knew Mark. Wow...I had Lauryn do that math for me btw hehehe.
Lauryn still has the chat transcript from when I found out Diana was in the car crash. Cuz she's the first person that told me. But...I won't show you that, quite embarressing. I mean, I could show you it. But I'm a different person now. And so it would be invalid.
I was 12 years old when I met Lauryn....wow. Now I'm 15.
Now it's 5 Inch Nails Again. Yum. So it's....4 hours until the 1900's are over. I can't wait. I'm tired of this century.
Want another one?
Sure you do;
Date: Sun, 8 Jun 1997 14:02:06 -0400 (EDT)
From: Casey104@aol.com
To: lauren@worldkids.net
Subject: Re: update
always will be. I don't even notice when I don't answer your question, sorry. Its just in that time
I didn't have GUYS to get done, but once I get GUYS done it will be the same
again. Actually once GUYS gets it joining form.
Hobbies: rollar blading, flying, swimming, traveling, watching movies, mtv, vh1. Favorite Shows: Bewitched, the Brady Bunch, Rose ,O'Donnel Show, Ellen, Prime Time LIVE, 20/20
Pets: Teddy, a chow, loves bones, swimming, and making me mad. Snuffy:
Old, loves pizza, fruit, chicken and his main goal in life is to be the
fattest dog in the world., hes a pekinese. Kato: is a cat, enjoys shoe
laces, twizzlers, bushes, the couch, sitting ontop of the computer.I have to go, I'll answer everythign else later, sorry!
i was a digglit then. Man, I could really beat some you-know-what. I was fierce. lol I'm making fun of myself. How sad. But. That person is different from me now. Totally different. Well, not toTALLY. Cuz I still love some of those tv shows. Even if I don't watch tv anymore.
My mom bought me Blair Witch video as a *suprise* but...I don't want it. lol That movie should have stayed in theatres only.
I used to be ENJOYABLE to be around. Now I'm just a preacher.
It's so ODD how kids grow up these days. When I graduated from elementary, there were these 3rd graders who I was friends with. And today I saw them at the store and they were MEN! Swear to goodness! Men!
Not full-grown of course but geezus, children just grow up right as you turn around. it's mind-boggling and weird. It just makes me huff and shake my head. children. now no longer.
Anywayz, pray unto yourself. And love me.